STOP abortion!

Hi, Mommy. I'm your baby. You don't know me yet, I'm only a few weeks old. You're going to find out about me soon, though, I promise. Let me tell you some things about me. My name is John, and I've got beautiful brown eyes and black hair. Well, I don't have it yet, but I will when I'm born. I'm going to be your only child, and you'll call me your one and only. I'm going to grow up without a daddy mostly, but we have each other. We'll help each other, and love each other. I want to be a doctor when I grow up.

You found out about me today, Mommy! You were so excited, you couldn't wait to tell everyone. All you could do all day was smile, and life was perfect. You have a beautiful smile, Mommy. It will be the first face I will see in my life, and it will be the best thing I see in my life. I know it already.

Today was the day you told Daddy. You were so excited to tell him about me! ...He wasn't happy, Mommy. He kind of got angry. I don't think that you noticed, but he did. He started to talk about something called wedlock, and money, and bills, and stuff I don't think I understand yet. You were still happy, though, so it was okay. Then he did something scary, Mommy. He hit you. I could feel you fall backward, and your hands flying up to protect me. I was okay... but I was very sad for you. You were crying then, Mommy. That's a sound I don't like. It doesn't make me feel good. It made me cry, too. He said sorry after, and he hugged you again. You forgave him, Mommy, but I'm not sure if I do. It wasn't right. You say he loves you... why would he hurt you? I don't like it, Mommy.

Finally, you can see me! Your stomach is a little bit bigger, and you're so proud of me! You went out with your mommy to buy new clothes, and you were so so so happy. You sing to me, too. You have the most beautiful voice in the whole wide world. When you sing is when I'm happiest. And you talk to me, and I feel safe. So safe. You just wait and see, Mommy. When I am born I will be perfect just for you. I will make you proud, and I will love you with all of my heart.

I can move my hands and feet now, Mommy. I do it because you put your hands on your belly to feel me, and I giggle. You giggle, too. I love you, Mommy.

Daddy came to see you today, Mommy. I got really scared. He was acting funny and he wasn't talking right. He said he didn't want you. I don't know why, but that's what he said. And he hit you again. I got angry, Mommy. When I grow up I promise I won't let you get hurt! I promise to protect you. Daddy is bad. I don't care if you think that he is a good person, I think he's bad. But he hit you, and he said he didn't want us. He doesn't like me. Why doesn't he like me, Mommy?

You didn't talk to me tonight, Mommy. Is everything okay?

It's been three days since you saw Daddy. You haven't talked to me or touched me or anything since that. Don't you still love me, Mommy? I still love you. I think you feel sad. The only time I feel you is when you sleep. You sleep funny, kind of curled up on your side. And you hug me with your arms, and I feel safe and warm again. Why don't you do that when you're awake, any more?

I'm 21 weeks old today, Mommy. Aren't you proud of me? We're going somewhere today, and it's somewhere new. I'm excited. It looks like a hospital, too. I want to be a doctor when I grow up, Mommy. Did I tell you that? I hope you're as excited as I am. I can't wait.

...Mommy, I'm getting scared. Your heart is still beating, but I don't know what you are thinking. The doctor is talking to you. I think something's going to happen soon. I'm really, really, really scared, Mommy. Please tell me you love me. Then I will feel safe again. I love you!

Mommy, what are they doing to me!? It hurts! Please make them stop! It feels bad! Please, Mommy, please please help me! Make them stop!

Don't worry Mommy, I'm safe. I'm in heaven with the angels now. They told me what you did, and they said it's called an abortion.

Why, Mommy? Why did you do it? Don't you love me any more? Why did you get rid of me? I'm really, really, really sorry if I did something wrong, Mommy. I love you, Mommy! I love you with all of my heart. Why don't you love me? What did I do to deserve what they did to me? I want to live, Mommy! Please! It really, really hurts to see you not care about me, and not talk to me. Didn't I love you enough? Please say you'll keep me, Mommy! I want to live smile and watch the clouds and see your face and grow up and be a doctor. I don't want to be here, I want you to love me again! I'm really really really sorry if I did something wrong. I love you!


I love you, Mommy.

Every abortion is just…

One more heart that was stopped.
Two more eyes that will never see.
Two more hands that will never touch.
Two more legs that will never run.
One more mouth that will never speak.

If you’re against abortion, reblog.

Save a life.

A really late THANK YOU

So, the Thank you is for my dearest friend Hans.



I would like to thank you for giving me a Best Friend award. I'm very grateful for it yet I didn't even know what I did to have the award but I still thank him for including me as one of his best friends.

Friends Forever as they say. I believe in this so I'll be giving my Best Friend Award just like Hans did to me. :)

1. Luisito Anton Tagaza (Bestest Best Friend)
2. Hans Brownsound (Kuya)
3. Marissa Exconde (Ex)
4. Kenneth John Pasaje (Pillows)
5. Ronacris Calata (Xo)
6. Hazel Vera Tan
7. Mary Ann Ong (Sis)
8. James Macaballug (Chick)
9. Elaine Macaballug
10. Justin Dulalia (Fuzzy)
11. Kaira Lebrilla (Kai)

CONGRATULATION!
I love you guys, you're so special to me. You played a big role in my life without you noticing. In times that I'm really down, you act as my hero. So, thank you for saving me. :)

Friends Forever!

Late!

This was supposed to be post August 24, 2010. But I was too lazy.

It wasn't my intention to be late. But I've figured it's better to go on to the second subject than to make a grand entrance during the exam in Information Communication (Computer Subject). Maybe by the end of my school hours, I'll go to my professor and take the exam even if it means I'll be in the room alone. If I'm not successful in finding him, I have no choice but to wait for the next meeting. I'm currently sitting in the stair way alone. Thinking what would my classmates or friends say to me. They're probably gonna ask why am I late for sure. Why I didn't attend the first subject. Do I have the right answers to answer their questions? From grade school until now, being late normally happens to me. A friend of mine said that the worst invention in the world is the alarm clock. I would have to agree, it's a force to wake us up from our humble sleep to start the day. My body clock was never fixed. I often get late. After school, I would sleep because I'm tired. Nap time should only be 30 minutes to 1 hour. But for me, I'll sleep until 6pm. Due to that I'll be a night owl or have insomnia. Nap time is the cause of insomnia according to research. It sucks!

Oh shit! 3 of my classmates are already here. I've ask them if the exam was hard. But they said no exam happened, all they did was something about the excel. Shit!

All I want to do is scream and say fowl words.

This day I declare as one of the most shitty day. I didn't attend the first subject. After waiting several minutes for the second class, General Chemistry. My friend ask me to join her to fix the fight between me and another friend. I'll definitely fail if I keep in doing this things. I have no choice but to accept.

I Ai Anime 2010

I only had a week to prepare before the actually day of cosplay.

In SM Megamall Megatrade Hall 2
July 10-11, 2010

But I can only attend July 10 since it's Saturday. Can't go on Sunday because I still have church. In just one week, I managed to make two swords but failed to bring it with me. I've asked a lot of tailoring store for the price in making my costume. It was expensive so I rather make it myself. When I get home from school I immediately make it but can't help my sleepiness during afternoons. I already finished my homework at school so that I have time in making my costume at home. My mom also helped me in making it. Props are made in just one day before the cosplay. This cosplay was a total rush for me. FYI that was my first time. Still looking forward for other events. Next will be on October, same place.

My character is Momo Hinamori from Bleach

On the left is another cosplayer acting also as Momo Hinamori. The character as you can see is on the right side.

Costume


And me wearing the costume which is hand made by me.

If you're curious who's the guy beside me. He is Justin, my church-mate. He even picked me up at my house and accompanied me together with another friend. In the morning, I was actually busy because I still have a class to attend. Haha!

These are the pictures while we are going around the mall. Enjoy!
Note about this picture:
We are actually in the grocery, currently in the candy section. I wanna buy Skittles. And the guy in front of me is our friend Kristopher. :)

This is how I look on my back view. Haha!

Anyway, I'm currently looking for new characters that can be suitable for me. There's a lot that I've chose but only one will be chosen. Good luck to me about that.

Cosplay on October!

First day of College

After graduating high school. I got a sense of feeling that college won't be the same as high school. Though I know the difference but not that much. I'm still a kid mentally and thinking that I won't fit in a matured filled school or should I say University.

Everyday of my summer vacation, I always think about what my life would be in college? Will I be matured and forget the things I used to love? Be a loner for I am different? Act like somebody else? And mostly what I always tell my friends "I'll get lost in such a big school in my first day, definitely!" So, I would say that half of my summer vacation, I was thinking about negative things. Bad, I know. I shouldn't be like this. For I was the one that give courage to my friends but I can't even help myself. How selfish of me.

The time has come for me to go to the University. It was one jeepney ride away from my home. 10-25 minutes travel time. First day, I know what to do. Ask for directions and shut the hell up! Just that. Luckily I didn't get lost. Congratulations to me! Yey! Like always we need to introduce ourselves in front of the whole class. Others think I have an accent or others just don't care. The professor commented about my voice. He said that it was perfect for call center agents. Well, I'm sorry but I don't want that job. He also asked me what I look for a guy. Is that even necessary? As I try to survive my first day, I was accompanied by my so-called new temporary friends. But for me, I look like a puppy dog following them around. I know one friend which was my classmate when we were in second year high school but we aren't that close so we don't talk much. A few subjects has passed and time was gone finally we made it up to the last subject. It's drawing fundamental where we will enhance our drawing skills. Since I was bored waiting for the professor I sudden wanted to draw anything in my pad. My cousin James went on my mind and there I drew my own version of his drawing. It's a chibi dude. Just that, nothing special. A girl in my class sit up next to me. Staring, looking in love. It was weird for me. Until the end of class, she's still staring at me and spoke up to me saying "You're cute, I like you. I was staring at you since the first class." At my mind I was saying "WTF? Are you lesbian?" But I silently answer with a smile. So weird yet knowing that someone appreciate me on the first day was awesome. The professor didn't show up, home is my next and last destination for the day. What a rough day. I mostly hate first days. So now is better.

Trying to survive

Level Up! Inc problem

I love the game Ragnarok! For those who doesn't know what it is. Ragnarok is one of the most popular game in the Philippines also in other countries. It's cute and easy to play. Everyone can play it, whether you're female or male. I got to know it from my sister and her friends since I was 9 years old. I'm not addicted to it because I don't play it always. Not like other people who would do like almost everything to play it. Even spend their time and forget about the important things just to play it. That is not good.

Anyway, I kinda got concerned because of my friend complaining. He spent money, time and effort. And for this day, he will just be surprised that EVERY GAME is on maintenance except Flyff. Without people knowing. What is that? They should let everyone know. Because these people love their games. Even their website is unavailable. I posted a comment saying

"Urrrggghhh!!! I feel sorry for my friend for YOUR MISTAKE! Though, I know you guys are doing everything you can. But letting a LOT of people down is not tolerable! Hope this never happens again. >.<"

I still respect Level Up! Inc. Come on! People are hoping to play the game any time they want. That is just rude to interrupt them giving a surprise news which is bad. Of course, lot of people will be complaining. Geeez! Aren't they evening thinking? I hope this won't happen again, if it will. Then, they should be wise.

Think before you do something

Fresh Tears

I won't cry!!! Waaaaah!

I can't help myself cry also because my Bestest Best Friend is crying.

Its been a long time since we met each other.

God bless everyone!
Especially you my Bestest Best Friend! ^^

I miss and love you!