First day of College

After graduating high school. I got a sense of feeling that college won't be the same as high school. Though I know the difference but not that much. I'm still a kid mentally and thinking that I won't fit in a matured filled school or should I say University.

Everyday of my summer vacation, I always think about what my life would be in college? Will I be matured and forget the things I used to love? Be a loner for I am different? Act like somebody else? And mostly what I always tell my friends "I'll get lost in such a big school in my first day, definitely!" So, I would say that half of my summer vacation, I was thinking about negative things. Bad, I know. I shouldn't be like this. For I was the one that give courage to my friends but I can't even help myself. How selfish of me.

The time has come for me to go to the University. It was one jeepney ride away from my home. 10-25 minutes travel time. First day, I know what to do. Ask for directions and shut the hell up! Just that. Luckily I didn't get lost. Congratulations to me! Yey! Like always we need to introduce ourselves in front of the whole class. Others think I have an accent or others just don't care. The professor commented about my voice. He said that it was perfect for call center agents. Well, I'm sorry but I don't want that job. He also asked me what I look for a guy. Is that even necessary? As I try to survive my first day, I was accompanied by my so-called new temporary friends. But for me, I look like a puppy dog following them around. I know one friend which was my classmate when we were in second year high school but we aren't that close so we don't talk much. A few subjects has passed and time was gone finally we made it up to the last subject. It's drawing fundamental where we will enhance our drawing skills. Since I was bored waiting for the professor I sudden wanted to draw anything in my pad. My cousin James went on my mind and there I drew my own version of his drawing. It's a chibi dude. Just that, nothing special. A girl in my class sit up next to me. Staring, looking in love. It was weird for me. Until the end of class, she's still staring at me and spoke up to me saying "You're cute, I like you. I was staring at you since the first class." At my mind I was saying "WTF? Are you lesbian?" But I silently answer with a smile. So weird yet knowing that someone appreciate me on the first day was awesome. The professor didn't show up, home is my next and last destination for the day. What a rough day. I mostly hate first days. So now is better.

Trying to survive